Similar: Alleviate, assuage, palliate, relieve, ameliorate, ease, help
Well there you see, what is healing to you.
I'm at the point that maybe, THIS IS BULLSHIT.
Once someone goes insane what's the rate of them going back to having sanity?
Exactly, that's my point. WE are NEVERRR going back to the same understanding, perception, Once we lose, Moving forward will always be devastating. Our heart is forever changed.
I think not having a father,
And not claiming a father, I guess that part never really bothered me.
As I am older now, I'm on the hype.. I've been seeing this trend, where like your Bio dad wasn't a good dad, & your mom gets a new guy and they like become the child's father.
I couldn't help but think like I'm so glad that these kids, mainly daughters I see, They didn't like the change of some man coming in their life and caring for them as any father should but they eventually created a beautiful bond with these men that they now call dad.
I am happy for them, And at the same time I wonder what it feels like.
And at the same time I wonder if life would be different.
& at the same time.. I could of had my dad but what if he wasn't anything good.
WELL you see that's the thing, That's why I don't have one, A Dad. =/
HE was never good. I'm a firm believer that if the man doesn't treat the mother right,
well mam he has nothing to offer the child but disrespect.
SO we go back to healing.
WELL this is it. ME helping MY DAMN SELF.
I'm alleviating these horrible thoughts.
That even brings us to thinking ,
Why ARE men so important..
like Girls who want love,
They say it stems from daddy issues.
WELL my only damn issue with my "DAD" is that I don't have one.
But like I said M I S S I N G fragments.
So at some point I got a taste of what MY dad was like.
I was like a teen when I decided my dad sucked, & I wanted him in no part of my life.
Here we are in 2025.
HEALING, yep.. SOLD OUT.
I've taught myself how to be okay without a father, father figure.
All the men in my life ended up to SHIT.
The real truth of them yeah,
So yeah who came up with the idea of wanting a two parent household?
or that children need a two parent household.
but wtf is that in 2025?
LGBTQ community has two parent households, same sex couples, trans, I mean what's the statistic on that?
what does the future behold for children that grow up in those households?
HONESTLY, Its the same outcomes in any fuckin household.
In life we are always looking for what's right,
what makes sense,
and also we are always trying to live like what society thinks is the norm.
WELL you know.
I'm currently providing a two parent household for my 3 sons that well,
IT RUNS IN THE FAMILY..
yeah no dad's around here.
One is a narcissist abuser that I think realized he wasn't shit.
the second is a drug addict. And what I've learned about that..
I wouldn't say an addict is a shitty person. But before the addiction was real..
He was already a shitty person, picking on a girl so vulnerable.
9/10 I went back to the same dynamic of relationships or worse.
After dealing with them.
HEALING, right back to that.
I mean I guess you do heal from stuff not really.
Maybe you get a better understanding for life.
and you know I have been in therapy for years,
I think what I realize is that I settled, I settled when a new journey for me, just began.
But now I cannot go back in time. Plus honestly it's unnecessary to regret things.
I've changed for the better,
And I've gone through a lot of loss.
In this relationship, I've realized and gone through a lot..
I've realized that I'm going through phases in life..
I'm finding myself yet I could have lost myself about two years ago,
lowkey I'm not sure what I'm doing at this point.
But I'm alive, and the UNKNOWN at this point is soo real.
Healing is putting things into perspective,
at the end of the day you still live..
now some people lose their sanity.
My solution for the person who feels depressed
alone
scared
worried
freaked out
annoyed
betrayed
unappreciated,
all the ugly feelings and all the negative words..
GET OUT , run as fast as you can.
CUT ALL THE NEGATIVE SHIT OUT.
Healing is accepting life for what it is,
IT's not re-framing it.
YOU LITERALLY LIVE after the unthinkable.
or you just spiral til you loose sanity.
Healing is a croc of shit.
WELL, thanks for tuning in.