who Am I , I nevva been found

i rather die than be alive,
i rather cry than smile,
i rather fly than lie here,
i rather look ta the sky than look down,
i rather pray than cuss',
i rather be me than be her,
i rather tell the truth instead of make believe,
i rather live in the sky than down here on earth,
i rather write than speak,
i rather open my heart than my legs,
i rather walk away than say sorry.
i am not the best,
i don't think right,
i have no respect,
i don't love,
i speak bullshit,
i live in hell,
i'm only a bitch to many,
some say i'm too quiet,
others say i look it.
beneath it all ima lil' gurl that's never been herself,
don't know what it's like to live.
I'm speakin my linez of my true story, 
just hear me out,
I really don't know who I am,
I've been lost since I was born.
He told my mother I wasn't shyt &
my whole life i've been gettin lost.
I've been tellin everyone help me,
just find me.
I pray&cry still tryda smile thru it all.
I am lost&I aint even been found.
Now read me, tell me who I am,
Cause I really don't know. -$prinkz